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Thursday, July 31, 2003

"So you're just gonna sit there and suck your thumb while I'm talking to you?? That's some real disrespectful unprofessional (ish). When you're picking your hair- you know you're picking your hair. When you're sucking your thumb you know you're sucking your thumb...This is wack - I'm out."

I KNEW IT WOULD ONLY BE A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE SOMEONE ADDRESSED THE THUMB SUCKING...AND APPROPRIATELY SO. THIS SHOW IS SO NONSENSICAL IT'S GETTING OUT OF HAND. AS MY FRIEND FROM BELIZE SAYS, " DIS IS PASS DA MARK!". WE ALL HAVE TO ADMIT THE WHOLE SHOW (AND OTHERS TOO) IS TOTAL PROPAGANDA....COMPLETE HOGWASH. THIS IS NOT HOW IT WORKS IN THE MUSIC INDUSTRY. PEOPLE LIKE THIS DO NOT GET DEALS. IT IS NOT HISTORY TO PUT A GROUP OF PEOPLE SO MUSICALLY DIVERSE TOGETHER...IT'S JUST PLAIN DUMB. THEY DON'T MESH- THEY DON'T FLOW. THEY ARE TRASH AS OF NOW. THEIR ATTITUDES ARE TRASH, THEIR MUSIC IS TRASH AND THEIR LOOK IS DEFINATELY TRASH. THIS SHOW IS AN ATTEMPT AT BRAINWASHING PEOPLE INTO BELIEVING THAT ARTISTS ARE STILL GIVEN CHANCE AFTER CHANCE AFTER CHANCE TO SOUND GOOD. THEY SHOULD CHANGE THE NAME OF THE SHOW FROM 'MAKING THE BAND 2' TO '20 EPISODES OF BADBOY PUBLICITY- THANKS SUCKAS!' WE'RE BEING BALLYHOOED PEOPLE!!

I'M STILL WATCHING THOUGH *PUT ON SAM-BO SMILE*

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

I COME ON THE NET TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE WEIGHTY ISSUES OF (MY) LIFE. I DON'T REALLY REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT ALL THAT STUFF HERE. LIFE CAN BE SO UNHUMEROUS AND SOBERING SO I WOULD MUCH PREFER TO COME ONLINE AND TYPE ABOUT TRIVIAL THINGS. THERE WILL BE MOMENTS WHEN I AM MENTALLY SUCKERED INTO SPEWING MY EVERDAY WORRIES ONTO THIS SCREEN...FRET NOT. THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE BY THE WAY....I AM TRULY TOUCHED (THOSE ARE THE TYPE OF THINGS YOUR SUPPOSE TO SAY RIGHT? O-TAY).

THE WHOLE POINT OF ADVERTISING IS TO PERSUADE THE CONSUMER TO BY THE PRODUCT CORRECT? WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DUMB COMMERCIALS OUT THERE THAT BARELY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE ACTUAL PRODUCT. WHY ARE SOME COMMERCIALS ONLY ON CERTAIN CHANELS AS WELL. WHENEVER I'M FLIPPING PASSED UPN OR WB (YOU KNOW ALL THE STATION THAT SUPPOSEDLY SERVICE THE BLACK COMMUNITY) WHY IS THERE ALWAYS SOME COMMERCIAL ABOUT GETTING YOUR G.E.D OR HOW TO GET FAST CASH FOR YOUR CAR, OR GETTING AN ASSOCIATIATES DEGREE THROUGH THE MAIL, OR TELLING YOU THAT THEY'LL HELP YOU WITH YOUR LAWSUIT FOR THAT BAD FISH SANDWHICH YOU HAD LAST WEEK, OR GETTING YOUR PHONE TURNED BACK ON.....WHAT THE HECK. WHAT KIND OF MESSAGE DOES THAT SEND. THAT WAS STRAIGHT RHETORICAL BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT KIND OF MESSAGE IT SENDS. I DON'T SEE ANY OF THOSE COMMERCIALS COMING ON AFTER STANK AZZ 'KING OF QUEENS' (I'LL GIVE YOU A LAP DANCE IF YOU HAVE EVEN SEEN THE SHOW).

I HATE THAT TAMPAX COMMERCIAL YOU KNOW THE ONE WHERE THE GIRL IS WEARING ALL WHITE AND SHE'S ON THE RAG *ROLLING MY EYES*...THEN SHE EXCUSES HERSELF TO GO TO THE BATHROOM.......THEN SHE SETS HER TAMPAX ON THE WINDOW SILL WITHOUT THINKING A STUPID MOVE LIKE THAT THROUGH AND TAKING INTO ACCOUNT THAT THE BATHROOM IS HUGE AND HER TAMPAX WOULD HAVE BEEN SAFE IN A MILLION OTHER ACCESSABLE AREAS, BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOO SHE CHOOSES THE WINDOW.... THE WINDOW IS WIDE OPEN AND A HUGE GUST OF WIND KNOCKS IT OUT.....THEN SHE DOES THE OMGOSH LOOK.....SHE SUDDENLY TURNS INTO MAVERICK AND COMES UP WITH A PURE GENIUS IDEA OF WASTING ALL THE HOME OWNERS MAXI-PADS BY MAKING SOME MAGICAL RESCUE ANCHOR INSTEAD OF WALKING HER TAIL DOWNSTAIRS AND GETTING HER TAMPAX OUT OF THE BUSHES....THEN AFTER IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE SHE TELLS HER BOYFRIEND THE LINE WAS LONG AS IF THEY WERE AT THE MOVIES INSTEAD OF A FRIENDS HOUSE.......THAT WHOLE COMMERCIAL IS A TALL ORDER OF DOO DOO.

AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT IS TIRED OF DAMON DASH. I THOUGHT PRODUCERS WERE THE ONLY PEOPLE ALLOWED TO DANCE AROUND IN OTHER ARTIST'S VIDEOS. AT FIRST HIS LITTLE DANCE WITH THE ARM PUMP AND SHIMMY WAS REALLY CUTE, BUT NOW........I'D SAY THE WORLD HAS HAD MORE THAN ENOUGH. MORE THAN ENOUGH OF HIM AND HIS BOTTLE OF VODKA (WHICH NO ONE IS BUYING BY THE WAY 'CAUSE I'VE NOT YET SEEN IT SITTING ON A SHELF IN A BAR...THEN AGAIN I DON'T GO TO BARS...BUT IT MAY BE IN 40\40).

TSK TSK TSK AT BEANIE SEAGLE. HE JUST COULD NOT RESTRAIN HIS URGE TO CONTINUE RUNNING THE STREETS. MY FRIEND FROM PHILLY SAYS SHE HAS LIVED ACROSS THE STREET FROM HIM HER WHOLE LIFE AND SAW HIS LAST DRAMA UNFOLD WHEN HE WAS RUNNING FROM THE COPS IN HIS YUKON. THE CHASE WAS ON AND WHEN BEANIE GOT TO THE BLOCK HE JUMPED HIS FAT AZZ OUT OF THE CAR AND TRIED TO THROW TWO GATS IN THE BUSHES AND KEEP IT MOVING ON FOOT. YEAH RIGHT..LIKE HE'D HAVE A CHANCE ON EARTH AT OUT RUNNING ANYONE. LOL.......... HE'S JUST AS BAD AS THOSE MAKING THE BAND KIDS. OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE SOMETHING OF THEMSELVES IS RIGHT THERE, BUT THEY INSIST ON FEEDING THEIR EGO INSTEAD OF THEIR FAMILY. FIGHTING A LOSING BATTLE.....LET SELF DIE GUYS....LET SELF DIE. WHY AM I EVEN TALKING ABOUT THIS. I HAVE NO INVESTED INTEREST IN ANY OF THESE CATS. I SURPRISE MYSELF SOMETIMES....SHAME ON ME.

CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHY ALSHARPTON IS IN THE MOVIE 'MR.DEEDS'? MORE THAN THAT- WHY IS HE PERPETRATING CHARACTERISTICS OF THE REV. JESSE JACKSON. HE KNOWS DAG ON WELL HE'S NOT KNOWN FOR VOWEL CHIMES, LIKE SOUNDS AND RHYME. WE HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN.

I AM REALLY TIRED OF HEARING WOMEN....BLACK WOMEN....SAY THAT THERE ARE NO GOOD MEN OUT THERE. YES THERE ARE. HOW CAN YOU EVEN SAY THAT. YOU HAVE TO BE AN UPRIGHT WOMAN TO FIND AN UPRIGHT MAN. YOU HAVE TO BE ON YOUR OWN COURSE OF SUCCESS IN ORDER TO MEET SOMEONE WHO IS ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT. I MEAN PEOPLE MEET PEOPLE AT ANY PLACE AND ANYTIME. I JUST DON'T THINK THAT GOING TO CLUBS AND BARS WILL HELP ALL THAT MUCH IN FINDING YOUR SOUL MATE. THAT'S LIKE GOING TO MCDONALDS FOR A NUTRITIOUS MEAL. I LOVE BLACK MEN. I JUST LOVE THEM.

AS COMMON SAYS 'IT DOESN'T TAKE A WHOLE DAY TO RECOGNIZE SUNSHINE' AND I KNOW THE BLACK MAN'S WORTH IN MY LIFE. THERE IS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT MY KING THAT MAKES ME SMILE. I LIKE TO STAND AMIDST A GROUP OF TALL BROTHERS AND BE SHADED BY THEIR WARMTH. I LIKE THEIR SWAGGER. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY SHOW LOVE AND GIVE EACH OTHER THE BROTHER POUND. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY ARE GOOFING OFF AND LAUGHING. I LIKE TO SEE THEM WITH THEIR CHILDREN. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY ARE GENTLE. I LIKE BEING IN A BARBER SHOP AND JUST WHEN THEY START TO GET VULGAR AND ANIMATED ONE OF THEM SAYS 'DON'T CURSE IN FRONT OF A LADY'. I LIKE IT WHEN I SEE THEM SUCCEED. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY DO THEIR FRATERNITY STEPS. I LIKE WHEN THEY TALK IN THAT LOW MONOTONE 'YOU KNOW YOU'RE SEXY' VOICE. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY GO OUT OF THEIR WAY TO BE CHIVALRIOUS. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY SHOW LOVE TO A QUEEN. I LOVE THE REFLECTIONS OF THEIR SKIN IN THE SUN. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY CALL ME 'SISTER'. I LIKE TO HEAR THEM SPEAK WORDS OF POETRY. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY FIGHT FOR JUSTICE. I LIKE THAT I AM A REFLECTION OF THEM. I LIKE TO FOLLOW THEIR LEAD. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY MAKE DECISIONS. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY DEFEND AND PROTECT THEIR FAMILY. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY READ THE NEWSPAPER IN THE MORNING. I LIKE THE FACT THAT THEY CAN BE ANYTHING AND DO IT SO DAMN WELL. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY DON'T WAIT FOR YOU TO ASK THEM FOR HELP. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY PLAY BALL, OR COACH A TEAM, OR OWN A TEAM. I LIKE THAT NOT ALL OF THEM ARE ATHLETIC. I LIKE THE SCIENTIFIC BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE BUSINESS ORIENTED BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE KNEE SLAP BLACK MAN. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY TEACH. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY LEARN. I LIKE IT WHEN THEY FOLLOW MY DIRECTIONS. I LIKE THE BREAK DANCING BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE HARD WORKING 9-5 BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE BLACK MAN THAT HAS NOT FOUND HIS WAY YET. I LIKE THE BLACK MAN THAT HAS HAD IT ROUGH, BUT WANTS SOMETHING MORE. I LIKE THE BLACK MAN THAT HAS HAD IT EASY AND WANTS TO KEEP IT EASY. I LIKE THE PRAYING BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE GOD FEARING BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE ARTISTIC BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE DREADED BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE LOW FADE BLACK MAN. I LIKE THE BLOW OUT BLACK MAN. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY KING. WITH EVERYTHING I'VE GOT- I LOVE HE WHO ABIDES AT MY CENTER.

THAT WAS NOT A POEM.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

I AM SO IN LIKE WITH AARON MCGRUDER.....AT FACE VALUE OF COURSE. ANY PERSON CAN MASK THEMSELVES TO BE ANYTHING THEY WANT UNTIL YOU REALLY GET TO KNOW THEM, BUT FROM WHAT I HAVE SEEN.. HE HAS SOME VERY ATTRACTIVE ATTRIBUTES. HE IS INTELLECTUALLY ASSERTIVE, HE IS SARCASTIC, SOCIALLY AWARE, HE IS PHYSICALLY APPEALING......VERY NICE ON THE EYES AND HE SEEMS TO BE SO RESPECTFUL OF PEOPLE. I JUST LIKE HIM. I LIKE A MAN TO BE MENTALLY ASTUTE WITHOUT COMING OFF AS CONDESCENDING. I AM REALLY FEELING HIM RIGHT NOW. I ALWAYS LIKED HIM, BUT I LIKE HIM TWICE AS MUCH NOW. I JUST SAW HIM ON REAL TIME HBO THE OTHER DAY. THE KID WAS SO WITTY AND HUMEROUS. ALL HIS ARGUMENTS WERE WELL SUPPORTED AND DIRECT. HE WAS SICK WITH IT VERBALLY. HE CAME ACROSS WELL VERSED AND ALL THAT GETS ME KIND OF HOT. DAMN. THAT IS JUST THE KIND OF BROTHER I WANT- NAH SCRATCH OUT WANT- NEED. THE TYPE OF BROTHER THAT YOU CAN TAKE TO A GHETTO BBQ OR A POLITICAL DINNER AND HE WILL BE WELL LIKED BY BOTH CROWDS....BUT MOST IMPORTANT BE THE SAME PERSON AT BOTH CROWDS. NO PRETENSE JUST GENUINE. I LIKE A BLACK MAN THAT CAN ARTICULATE HIS THOUGHTS WITHOUT ASSIMILATING INTO A WHITE MAN. THAT KIND OF DIDN'T COME OUT RIGHT, BUT YOU GET MY DRIFT. I MEANT WITHOUT PRETENDING TO BE SOMETHING HE'S NOT. I JUST LIKE TO SEE BLACK MEN (AND WOMEN FOR THAT MATTER) BE ABLE TO HOLD A WELL ROUNDED CONVERSATION. WHAT IS SEXIER THAN THAT? OKAY, THERE MAY BE A FEW THINGS SEXIER THAN THAT, BUT NOT MANY. FORMAL EDUCATION DOES NOT EQUATE KNOWLEDGE....I LEARNDED THAT A LONG TIME AGO. EDUCATION DOES EQUATE KNOWLEDGE BECAUSE TO HOLD AN INTELLIGENT CONVERSATION MEANS THAT YOU HAVE INVESTED IN TRYING TO LEARN SOMETHING NEW EVERYDAY......WELL IF NOT EVERYDAY AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE. IN ANY EVENT ALL I'M SAYING IS AARON MCGRUDER IS A SILVER DOLLAR AND HE CAN GET IT! (NOT LITERALLY...PSSSSSSH WHO AM I KIDDING?!! HE CAN GET IT!).

OH BY THE WAY WE NEED MORE BLACK REPUBLICANS. I AM NOT A BLACK REPUBLICAN AND NEVER HAVE BEEN. I USED TO BE A DEMOCRAT, BUT I DO NOT KNOW IF THE PARTY TRULY WORKS FOR ME. I DON'T KNOW IF ANY PARTY TRULY WORKS FOR ANYONE, BUT FOR NOW I WILL REMAIN NON PARTISAN UNTIL I SEE SOME REAL CHANGE. I WILL JUST VOTE FOR WHO I THINK WILL DO A BETTER JOB WITHOUT TRYING TO URINATE ON AMERICANS IN THE PROCCESS. THE REASON WHY WE NEED MORE BLACK AMERICANS IS VERY SIMPLE. I'LL GET TO THAT IN A MINUTE THOUGH. I USED TO ISH ON BLACK REPUBLICANS CALLING THEM EVERY NAME IN THE BOOK UNLCE TOMS, SELL OUTS, YADDA YADDA BLAH ZAY BLIGGIDY BLAH YOU NAME IT. I DIDN'T EVEN REALLY KNOW WHY. I DID IT OUT OF IGNORANCE AND MISEDUCATION. I FIGURED THAT ANYTHING THAT INVOLVED MOSTLY WHITE PEOPLE WAS FOR THE BETTERMENT OF ONLY WHITE PEOPLE....I STILL HOLD TRUE TO THAT TO SOME DEGREE.....FOR PERSONAL INTEREST REASONS.....WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH NOT LIKING WHITE PEOPLE BUT MORE TO DO WITH MONOPOLIZED POWER.....BUT I DIGRESS - WHICH HAPPENS OFTEN. IN ONE OF MY CLASSES THE PROFESSOR STARTED ASKING HOW WE FELT ABOUT CERTAIN PROMINENT ISSUES IN AMERICA: ABORTION, GUN CONTROL, CAPITAL PUNISHMENT, GUN CONTROL, CAPITAL PUNISHMENT, GUN CONTROL, GUN CONTROL, LOL SOME MORE GUN CONTROL, WELFAIR REFORM, AFFIRMATIVE ACTION AND EDUCATION. TO MY DISMAY (AND THE REST OF THE CLASS) WE DISCOVERED THAT ALOT OF BLACK PEOPLE HOLD VERY CONSERVATIVE VIEWS ON ALOT OF ISH.....BUT YET WE STILL VOTE DEMOCRATIC. IT'S TRUE....WELL IT WAS TRUE THAT DAY. SO WHY ARE WE STILL DEMOCRATS...DAMNED IF I KNOW. ANYWAY BACK TO THE TOPIC AT HAND WE NEED MORE REPUBLICANS BECAUSE THE ONES THAT DO EXIST AND SERVE IN CONGRESS AND CABINET ARE DYING OFF SLOWLY AND THIS CAN NOT HAPPEN. WE ARE BECOMING EXTINCT IN THE REPUBLICAN PARTY. IF THERE ARE NO BLACK FACES IN THOSE FORUMS IT'S AS GOOD AS A KLU KLUX KLAN MEETING. WE CAN'T HAVE THAT-- NOT IN THE WHITE HOUSE ANYWAY....LOL.. THAT WAS FUNNY TO ME *CLEEARING THROAT*. BLACK PEOPLE MUST BE REPRESENTED IN ALL SECTORS. THAT IS THE ONLY WAY TO OBTAIN TRUE POWER IN AMERICA. SO WE NEED MORE BLACK REPUBLICANS FOR THE NUMBERS AND REPRESENTATION. YOU CAN LIKE IT OR HATE IT BUT IT MAKES MORE SENSE THEN NO SENSE.

LAST TOPIC FOR THE DAY.....WOMEN AND JEALOUSY. I ADMIT I HAVE BEEN GUILTY OF THIS JEALOUSY THANG. WHEN I AM IN A RELATIONSHIP I NEEDED TO KNOW AT ALL TIMES THAT I AM THE ISH. I NEEDED FOR MY MAN TO LET ME KNOW THAT IT WAS ABOUT ME AT ALL TIMES. SO WHEN THE WONDERING EYE THING STARTED.......THERE WOULD BE PROBLEMS. WHEN MY GUY WANTED TO GO TO CLUBS OR EVENTS WHERE THERE WERE A LOT OF WOMEN I WOULD GET REALLY PANICKY. I FORGOT THERE ARE WOMEN EVRY WHERE. I WOULD GET PANICKY AGAIN. BAD BUSINESS. WE CAN'T DO THAT GIRLS. IT'S FEEDING INTO THE HYPE. IF YOU ARE WITH A GUY AND THEY LOOK AT ANOTHER WOMAN LET IT GO. DON'T EVEN COMMENT.DON'T COMMENT NOW. DON'T COMMENT LATER. DON'T COMMENT TWO DAYS FROM NOW A MONTH A YEAR....YOU KNOW HOW WE DO! WE'LL PULL ISH FROM FIVE YEARS AGO. DON'T DO THAT FOR TWO REASONS 1) IT'S LIKE YOU'RE ACKNOWLEDGING THAT THERE IS ACTUALLY ANOTHER WOMAN IN THE AREA BESIDES YOU THAT IS WORTH LOOKING AT 2) YOU ARE FEEDING INTO HIS BAD HABITS AND HELPING HIM GET A RISE OUT OF THE ACT BECAUSE REGARDLESS OF A GUY ADMITTING IT OR NOT THEY LIKE TO SEE YOU ALL WORKED UP OVER THEIR ATTENTION...TO A CERTAIN EXTENT. I THINK CONFIDENCE IS MORE OF A TURN ON TO A MAN AND INSECURITIES LIKE THAT IS A HANICAP IN THE RELATIONSHIP. IF YOU THINK THAT HE IS LOOKING THEN THAT IS ACKNOLEDGING THAT ANOTHER CHICK IS WORTH LOOKING AT AND MAYBE HE'LL START LOOKING EVEN MORE. IF HE STARTS LOOKING EVEN MORE NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO THEN JUST LET HIS RAGGEDY AZZ GO......YOU DON'T NEED ALL THAT AGGREVATION. UH UH NO....YOU ARE THE ONE. YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WORTH GLANCES SO ACT LIKE IT. SHAKE YOUR TAIL PUT ON THE EXTRA HARD SWITCH AND MAKE SURE THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS ON POINT. NOT FOR HIM- FOR YOURSELF BECAUSE IF YOU FEEL THAT WAY ALL THE TIME YOU WILL START BELIEVING IT ALL THE TIME.

K..I'M DONE

Sunday, July 27, 2003

UH..ONE REQUEST- RIP MY EYEBALLS OUT IF I HAVE TO SEE ANOTHER WOMAN WEARING A SEE THROUGH SHIRT WITH NO BRA. WHO SAID THAT WAS FASHIONABLE? DO YOU MEAN TO TELL ME THAT THERE ARE WOMEN OUT THERE THAT ARE SO SHIFTLESS AND UNIMAGINABLE THAT THEY CAN NOT CONJURE UP BETTER WAYS TO EXHIBIT THEIR SEXUALITY?!?! UNLESS YOU ARE CURRENTLY WORKING IN A STRIP CLUB THAT IS NOT THE MOVE. IT IS TASTELESS AND CLASSLESS AND IT SIMPLY MAKES ONE LOOK LIKE LESS. I AM DUMBFOUNDED THAT THERE ARE ACTUALLY WOMEN THAT HAVE THAT LITTLE DEPTH AND SELF WORTH THAT THEY WOULD PRESENT THEMSELVES OUT IN THE STREET LIKE THAT. IT'S AS SHOCKING AS SEEING A WOMAN WITH A SHIRT THAT SAYS "I AM A WHORE,SKANK AND SLUT". I CAN NOT UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF IT NO MORE THAN I CAN UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF 'THE ARTIST FORMERLY KNOWN AS PRINCE' IN HIS ASS-LESS PANTS. JUST DON'T MAKE NO DAMN SENSE. WHAT IS NEXT? MEN WITH SEE THROUGH PANTS AND NO DRAWS.....HMMMMMMMMM.................OKAY LET'S STAY FOCUSED HERE. FOR PROSPERITY'S SAKE- CAN SOMEONE OTHER THAN ME TELL THEM TO STOP IT RIGHT NOW????!!!!!! PRETTY PLEASE WITH A NIPPLE ON TOP? "DRESS SHABBY THEY WILL NOTICE THE DRESS; DRESS IMPECABLY THEY WILL NOTICE THE WOMAN" - COCO CHANEL.

NOW THIS IS ONLY FOR A SELECT GROUP. I AM NOT TRYING TO THROW ALL MEN IN THE SAME CATEGORY. FOR YOU CATS OUT THERE THAT DO NOT LIKE THE TERM 'BOYFRIEND'.....NOT BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO BE TIED DOWN, BUT BECAUSE YOU THINK THE TERM SOUNDS YOUNG AND CHILDISH. OKAY, FAIR ENOUGH. DON'T CALL ME YOUR 'BOYFRIEND' YOU SAY? YOU WANT ME TO CALL YOU MY 'MAN' HUH? NAH. I DON'T THINK SO BRO. YOU SEE- REAL MEN DON'T STAY IN COMMITTED RELATIONSHIPS INDEFINATELY. REAL MEN......GROWN MEN....GET M-A-R-R-I-E-D. YES, THAT'S RIGHT MARRIED. SO EITHER YOU STAY SINGLE AND DON'T COMMIT UNTIL YOU ARE READY FOR THAT LEVEL OF COMMITMENT OR YOU SUCK IT UP AND DEAL...BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT YOU ARE. A BOYFRIEND. NUFF SAID.

WE ARE NEARING THE END OF MY RANT SO HOLD TIGHT. I REALLY HAVE AN ISSUE WITH THIS TERM 'FEMALES' THAT IS BEING THROWN AROUND SO FREQUENTLY. AT FIRST I JUST HEARD THE TERM USED BY MEN, BUT FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF YEARS I HAVE BEEN HEARING THE TERM USED BY WOMEN MORE AND MORE. WHEN I HEAR THE TERM FEMALE ROLLING OFF THE TONGUES OF PEOPLE IT HAS THE SAME VENOMOUS RING AS BITCH. I DON'T LIKE IT. THERE ARE TWO KINDS OF HUMAN BEINGS....MEN.....AND WOMEN. FOR THE HUMAN FEMALE SEX THERE ARE TWO CATEGORIES.......GIRLS AND WOMEN. IT'S ONE OR THE OTHER. WHEN YOU ADDRESS SOMEONE BY USING THE TERM FEMALE YOU MAY NOT NECESSARILY BE REFERRING TO A WOMAN. YOU MAY BE TALKING ABOUT A FEMALE CAT, ELEPHANT, ZEBRA..OR DOG. I DON'T KNOW. ONE THING THAT I DO KNOW IS WHEN YOU SAY GIRL OR WOMAN THERE IS NO AMBIGUITY. I DON'T LIKE THE TERM FEMALE. I AM NOT TRYING TO BE HEAVY INTO SEMANTICS HERE, BUT RATHER EXPRESS A GENUINE CONCERN. WHEN A WOMAN OR MAN REFERS TO ME AS A FEMALE I TAKE THAT AS A DIRECT INSULT. I AM MORE THAN A FEMALE I AM A WOMAN.

OH BY THE WAY... THE MEMO WENT OUT......I GOT IT A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO, BUT IT SEEMS AS THOUGH SOME OF YOU MAY HAVE BEEN OVERLOOKED. BRAIDS ARE DONE IF YOU ARE OVER 17 JUST CALL IT A WRAP. NO MORE BRAIDS OKAY. BRAIDS ARE FOR LITTLE BOYS. THIS IS JUST AN OPINION. IT IS FAR TOO MUCH MAINTAINENCE FOR A GROWN MAN. YOU GUYS CAN BARELY DO ENOUGH TO KEEP THE DOO DOO STREAKS OUT OF YOUR DRAWS LET ALONE MAINTAIN BRAIDS ON A WEEKLY BASIS. YOU SEE FOLKS, WHEN YOU ARE UNDER 17 AT LEAST YOU MAY HAVE AN ATTENTIVE MOM LOOKING AFTER YOU AND MAKING SURE YOU AREN'T LOOKING RAGGEDY, BUT AFTER YOU GET PAST A CERTIAN AGE YOU HAVE TO MANAGE ON YOUR OWN. SOME OF YOU CAN NOT MANAGE ON A TON OF STUFF LET ALONE THE BRAIDS. IF YOU MUST KEEP THEM GET YOUR HAIR TRIMMED EVERY SO OFTEN SO YOU CAN WEAR YOUR HAIR OUT IN A FRO AND IT WON'T LOOK COMPLETELY RAGGEDY. YOU HAVE NOT BEEN DOING THAT HAVE YOU? I THOUGHT NOT. WEAR YOUR HAIR OUT SOMETIMES AND MAKE SURE YOU TRIM IT AND CONDITION IT AND STUFF. DON'T GROW IT TOO LONG BECAUSE IT STARTS TO LOOK A LITTLE FRUITY IF IT'S GOING DOWN YOUR BACK. I DON'T CARE FOR THE BRAIDED LOOK ON GROWN MEN, BUT I WILL ADMIT IT LOOKS COOL ON SOME. THIS DOES NOT SUPERCEDE THE FACT THAT IT HAS BEEN PLAYED FOR SOME TIME NOW. DON'T KILL THE MESSENGER GUYS! THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH SO HELP ME SUPER CAT. NOW IF ANY OF YOU HAVE SEEN THE NEW 112 VIDEO I THINK YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. WHAT IS SUPER CAT DOING??????? DOESN'T HE KNOW HE LOOKS LIKE AN OLD AZZ MEMBER OF B2K. HE LOOKS LIKE OMARION FASTFORWARD 50 YEARS. IT'S A WRAP FOLKS.

AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS FOUND 'INVISIBLE MAN' BY RALPH ELLISON INCREDIBLY INTERESTING, BUT HAS NOT BEEN ABLE TO READ IT WITHOUT STOPPING AND BEGINNING TO READ OTHER BOOKS JUST TO REMEMBER THAT YOU HAVE NOT FINISHED 'INVISIBLE MAN' AND THEN YOU PICK IT UP AGAIN, BUT STOP TO PICK UP SOMETHING LIKE 'THE ISSYSS PAPERS' WHICH IS ALSO EXTREMELY NTERESTING (YES THIS IS A RUN ON SENTENCE AND WHAT?????) BUT YOU PUT 'ISSYSS PAPERS' DOWN AS WELL WITHOUT FINISHING IT ONLY TO PICK SOMETHING DUMB UP LIKE 'US WEEKLY' WHICH IS INCREDIBLY FUN! THEN WHEN YOU'RE FINISHED WITH THAT YOU REALIZE THAT YOU WOULD RATHER SPEND ALL YOUR SPARE TIME WATCHING REALITY T.V. INSTEAD OF HELPING YOUR MIND TO GROW WITH ENLIGHTENMENT. OH..........I GUESS I'M THE ONLY ONE. EH......

Saturday, July 26, 2003

SO I WENT OUT LAST WEEKEND WITH MY FRIEND. IT TWAS HER 25TH BIRTHDAY...YAY....NO REALLY YAY!!! IT WAS ONE OF THOSE LET'S DO STUFF ALL WEEKEND TYPE OF BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS......SO I'LL GIVE YOU A WHOLE WEEKEND OUTLINE STARTING FROM FRIDAY. I TOOK THE C TRAIN FROM FORTY DUECE AND HOPPED OFF AT 135TH. I GO TO MY CHICA'S HOUSE WHO LIVES IN THE VERY HEART OF HARLEM ( I HEART HARLEM BTW). SHE WASN'T OFF WORK YET SO I DECIDE TO WALK UP 8TH AVE AND GO TO THE MY HAIRDRESSER, MYRA, TO GET MY WIG TOSSED. I MUST MAKE AN IMPORTANT NOTATION HERE. I HAVE BEEN GROWING MY HAIR OUT NATURAL FOR A LITTLE OVER A YEAR NOW. I JUST GOT SO TIRED OF PERMING IT. THE BURN, THE IRRITATION, THE HORROR.........SO I STILL GO TO MY DOMINICAN MOMMY AND HAVE HER DO A WASH AND SET AND BLOW IT OUT. I CUT THE ENDS EVERY MONTH OR SO AND IT'S BEEN GROWING OUT PRETTY NICELY. NOW I HAVE 'THE ORIGINAL' BLACK GIRL HAIR. I DON'T HAVE THAT EXTRA SOFT CURLY TYPE OF HAIR. I HAVE THE SUPER DUPER TIGHT ITSY BITSY SPIRAL TYPE OF KINKY HAPPY TO BE NAPPY HAIR MIXED IN WITH THE LITTLE BIT OF LEFT OVER PERMED HAIR. IN ANY EVENT I GET MY HAIR BLOWN OUT REGULARLY BY MY DOMINICAN MOMMY.....AND LET ME TELL YOU. MY JOINT LOOKS FLOWY AND BLOWY AND STRAIGHT. IT IS SILKY AND NOT GREASED DOWN AND IT MOVES. I MEAN YOU WOULD THINK THAT TERRORISTS WERE UP IN MY HEAD BECAUSE IT IS JUST THE BOMB! SO FOR ALL OF YOU SISTERS THAT ARE STRUGGLING WITH TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GO ABOUT GROWING YOUR JOINT OUT NATURAL WITHOUT JUST CUTTING THE WHOLE THING OFF... COME AND SEE A GOOD DOMINICAN MOMMY THAT CAN BLOW YOUR DOME PIECE OUT AND MAKE YOUR HAIR MORE MANAGABLE. HAVING SAID ALL THAT WE CAN MOVE ON......

SO BY THE TIME I GOT FINISHED WITH ALL THAT IT WAS NEARING 7PM. I WALKED OVER TO HMV ON 125TH AND COPPED THE BEYONCE CD FOR THE BIRTHDAY GIRL. THAT ALBUM IS PRETTY FABULOUS BY THE WAY. I AM STILL VERY ADAMANT ABOUT THE FACT THAT BEYONCE CAN NOT DANCE THOUGH. SHE CAN MOVE AND SHE PUTS ALL HER EFFORT INTO IT, BUT SHE IS NOT AN INNATELY TALENTED DANCER. SHE IS ON THE MEDIOCRE MARK. K THANKS. OH AND BY NO MEANS IS HAVING AN OPINION ON THESE TYPE OF THINGS BEING A HATER...IT'S JUST SIMPLY HAVING AN OPINION. CAN PEOPLE NOT HAVE THOUGHTS AND ARTICULATE THEM ANYMORE WITHOUT FEAR OF BEING CALLED SOME LAME PSUEDO TERM LIKE 'HATER'. MOVING ON...

SO I AFTER I LEAVE HMV I DECIDE TO MEET HER AT HER JOB. WE JUMPED IN HER CAR AND CAME BACK TO HER CRIB, KICKED IT, GIGGLED ABOUT DUMB STUFF, BLAH BLAH ZAY BLAH. BY THEN IT WAS NEARING FREAKS COME OUT AT NIGHT TIME. AND 8TH AVENUE WAS JUMPING. IT WAS A REALLY NICE EVENING. THE KIND OF EVENING WHERE YOU STILL SEE BABIES HANGING OUT WITH THEIR DRUNK MOMS ON THE STREET CORNER AFTER 1 AM- YOU GOTTA LOVE THAT. SO LITTLE KIDS ARE ZIPPING UP AND DOWN THE AVE ON THEIR MOTORED SCOOTERS, OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. OH I SKIPPED THE PART WHEN I FELL ASLEEP. I FELL ASLEEP. I AM THE TYPE THAT CAN NOT FALL ASLEEP IF I PLAN TO GO OUT. I WILL NOT WANT TO GET UP BECAUSE SLEEP SUPERCEEDS EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE...EATING, TAKING PHONE CALLS, BURNING BUILDINGS.....IT MUST WAIT UNTIL I AWAKE ....WHICH COULD BE THE NEXT DAY. SO I BEGRUDGINGLY AWOKE AND DECIDED TO GO TO SOME LOUNGE SPOT WITH HER CALLED GROOVEJET. IT'S OVER BY CHEETAH'S WHICH I REFUSE TO GO TO ANYMORE. CHEETAH'S IS CORNBALL AND COMMON. TOO MANY UNCLASSY FOLKS POPULATE IN THERE. ANYWAY GROOVEJET WAS FREE FOR US BECAUSE ONE OF THE PEOPLE WE WERE ROLLING WITH NEW THE DUDE AT THE DOOR. IT WAS OKAY. NOT MY KIND OF MUSIC OR CROWD. I DON'T DRINK OR SMOKE SO UNLESS THERE IS MUSIC THERE IS NO POINT IN ME GOING TO A LOUNGE. THAT'S WHY I PREFER CLUBS OVER LOUNGES. I LIKE A GARAUNTEE THAT PEOPLE WILL BE DANCING WHEN I WALK IN. THEN I CAN JUST SUBMERGE MYSELF IN THE SCENE. SO I DIDN'T WANT TO STAY AT GROOVEJET TOO LONG. I WANTED TO GO TO CHURCH THE NEXT DAY. THER IS NOTHING IRONIC ABOUT THAT BY THE WAY. YOU PEOPLE ARE CRAZY.

SO NEXT DAY FAST FORWARD TO AFTERNOON. WE HIT UP THE HARLEM BOOK FAIR. I HEARTED THE BOOK FAIR. SO MANY WONDERFUL FACES, AND STYLE, AND HARMONY, AND HAIR, AND BLACK LITERATURE, AND SPOKEN WORD, AND JAZZ.....ME LOVED IT. ME REALLY DID. I LIKE TO SEE MY PEOPLE IN THERE NATURAL CREATIVE ELEMENT. I WISH I COULD REINVENT MYSELF AND REWIND BACK TO HARLEM RENNESIANCE. OH WELL. NO CHANCE OF THAT. SO MY BIRTHDAY GIRL JUST NOW DISCOVERED BLACK SMUT AND BABY MOMMA DRAMAS.....SHE IS AN OFFICIAL ADDICT. SO SHE WAS CIRCLING AROUND THE BLACK EXPRESSION TABLES LIKE SOME BOOK VULTURE. SHE WAS LOOKING FOR SOME BOOK BY ZHANE. I AM OVER ALL OF THAT. I DID THAT IN COLLEGE. I DON'T REALLY READ BOOKS OF THAT CALLIBER ANYMORE. NOT KNOCKING IT THOUGH. I HAVE JUST OUTGROWN ALL OF THAT OMAR TYREE, E. LYNN HARRIS, ERIC JEROME DICKEY STUFF. SO WE LEFT THE BOOK FAIR AND THEN WENT BACK TO HER APARTMENT TO PARTAKE OF THE CAKE. NOW IF THERE IS ANYBODY FROM HARLEM OR NEW YORK CITY FOR THAT MATTER THAT HAS NEVER HAD A SLICE OF 'MAKE MY CAKE'. YOU NEED TO ASK SOMEBODY. THAT CAKE IS SERIOUS BUSINESS. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE A CAKE LOVER TO FALL IN LOVE. I AM NOT A CAKE LOVER EITHER. THEY MAKE THE BEST CAKE IN NYC HANDS DOWN. PLUS THEY ARE A BLACK OWNED BUSINESS. THE PLACE IS VERY CLEAN AND THEY SELL OTHER YUMMY STUFF TOO. THEY HAVE COOKIES, COBBLERS, BROWNIES AND PIES OOOO CHILE! EVRYONE GOES TO THEM. YOU SHOULD TOO. MAKE MY CAKE ON 137TH I BELIEVE.

THE NEXT DAY WE REGROUPED AND ENDED UP GOING TO PALLISADES MALL IN UPSTATE NEW YORK. IT WAS ONE OF THOSE WEIRD CAR RIDES WHERE WE ACTUALLY LEFT NEW YORK AND WENT THROUGH NEW JERSEY JUST TO COME BACK INTO NEW YORK BECAUSE SOMEONE SAID IT WAS QUICKER. HEY, I LIKE CAR RIDES WITH FUN PEOPLE SO IT WAS COOL WITH ME. SO WE WENT TO PALLISADES MALL AND THIS TRIP INCLUDED TWO CARS,3 KIDS AND FOUR ADULTS. I AM CHILDLESS AND SO IS BIRTHDAY GIRL. HER SISTER AND SISTER IN LAW WERE THE ONLY ONE WITH CHILDREN. OH F.Y.I. WHEN I WAS WORKING IN THE SOCIAL WORK ARENA I WAS INFORMED THAT THE WORD 'KID' IS DEROGATORY AND THE WORD 'CHILD' SHOULD BE USED INSTEAD. WHY- I AM STILL UNSURE......SO YEAH THERE WERE 3 KIDS AND FOUR ADULTS. NOW THIS WAS MY FIRST VISIT TO PALLISADES MALL WHICH WAS STARTLING BECAUSE AFTER ALL I AM THE CONSUMMATE SHOPPER. THIS MALL IS FABULOUS. THEY HAVE EVRYTHING YOU COULD IMAGINE, EVERY STORE YOUR OF YOUR HEARTS DESIRE....EXCLUDING HIGH LABEL STORES LIKE SAKS AND SUCH. THEY HAD EVRY FRANCHISED RESTARAUNT TOO. UPON ENTERING I WAS HIT WITH THE AROMAS OF CHEESECAKE FACTORY. I HEART CHEESECAKE FACTORY. THIS MALL IS SO BIG THAT IT HAS A FERRIS WHEEL AND A ROLLERCOASTER IN THERE. MIND YOU, THE ROLLERCOASTER IS NOT BIG BUT IT IS ENOUGH TO GIVE A RUSH. I WENT ON IT. I AM NOT A ROLLERCOASTER PERSON BUT I WENT ON IT ANYWAY. TWAS FUN. SO WE LEFT AFTER A LONG DAY....AND WE PLAYED BEYONCE'S CD OVER AND OVER. SMILES.

SO LATER THAT NIGHT WE WENT TO VUE. NOW I HEARD THAT VUE IS POPPING ON SUNDAY NIGHTS FOR THE GROWN AND SEXY PEOPLE. IT'S ON THE EAST SIDE IN THE FIFTIES. WE ARRIVED. ALOT OF STUNTING OUTSIDE WITH PEOPLE ROLLING UP IN HUMM V'S AND BENZOS AND THE OTHER COLLAR POPPING VEHICHLES. EH....... WHATEVAH.........I THOUGHT I LOOKED ESPECIALLY LOVELY IN MY SEA BLUE LEATHER FLOWERED HEALS WITH MY FRENCH MANICURED TOES, MY MINI LIGHT BLUE DENIM SKIRT, THIS CUTE LITTLE WHITE PEASANT TOP I GOT FROM CLUB MANACO AND THIS LEATHER BLUE FLOWERED PIN THAT MATCHED EXACTLY WITH MY HEELS. I ALSO HAD A LITTLE BAG THAT I COPPED DOWN BY 34TH STREET THAT SET THE WHOLE LOOK OFF. I THOUGHT I LOOKED CUTE, BUT I NOW REALIZE I MAY NOT BE THE BEST JUDGE OF APPEARANCE. 'CAUSE I THOUGHT LUMMIDEE WAS CUTE-EASY ON THE EYES-NO HALLE BERRY , BUT OK. I HAVE BEEN INFORMED MORE THAN SEVERAL TIMES THAT NO ONE THINKS SHE IS ATTRACTIVE AND INSTEAD OF SINGING UH OH PEOPLE ARE NOW SINGING OH NO. NOT TOO HAPPY ABOUT THIS. OH WELL. WE GET IN. IT'S CROWED, BUT CROWDED DOES NOT A GOOD PARTY MAKE. THE MUSIC WAS GAR-BAGE. THE SAME SONGS WERE BEING REPLAYED SO OFTEN THAT WE BEGAN TO SUSPECT THAT THERE WAS NOT A LIVE DJ IN THE HOUSE AND THAT WE WERE LISTENING TO A CD. THAT ATMOSPHERE WAS ALRIGHT, BUT NOT SO GREAT THAT I WANTED TO DANCE DANCE DANCE. I LOVE TO DANCE, BUT I JUST WAS NOT FEELING IT. WE LEFT AROUND 3AM. EH......

SO THAT ABOUT WRAPS IT UP FOLKS. ONE-

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

AM I THE ONLY ONE ON THE PLANET THAT FAILS TO SEE WHAT THE BIG DEAL IS ABOUT EMINEM AND 50 CENT. THEY ARE BOTH OKAY. JUST OKAY...NOTHING MORE. THEY CAN RHYME, BUT THEY ARE HARDLY IN THE TOP 10 BEST RAPPERS CATEGORY. I'M SORRY THEY'RE JUST NOT. DON'T KILL THE MESSENGER. I'VE HEARD BETTER RAPPERS WHEN I WAS IN THE DORMS HANGING OUT WITH MY FELLOW (DRUNK) SCHOLARS. PEOPLE WOULD FLOW WITH SOME SICK STUFF. I MEAN IF YOU PUT ANYONE OF MY DRUNK HOMIES (SLURRED WORDS AND ALL) THEY COULD COME UP WITH LYRICS JUST AS TIGHT.....AND THEY'RE NOT EVEN WANNA BE RAPPERS....THEY ARE WANNA BE LAWYERS AND DOCTORS AND TEACHERS. IMAGINE WHAT THEY WOULD BE ABLE TO SPIT IF THEY WERE SERIOUSLY DEDICATED TO THE RAP GAME. ALL I'M SAYING IS BOTH OF THEM HAVE YEARS OF IMPROVEMENT BEFORE YOU CAN EVEN BEGIN TO SAY THEY ARE IN THE TOP 10....C'MON. MOVING ON.......

DOES ANYBODY OUT THERE REMEMBER THE CANDY 'BONKERS'. IT WAS KIND OF A CROSS BETWEEN 'NOW AND LATERS' (BY THE WAY I HAVE MY NOW AND LATER GATORS ON) BUT NOT AS SOFT AS STARBURSTS. ANYWAY I USED TO HEART 'BONKERS'. DO THEY STILL MAKE THEM? IT'S STRANGE THAT I ONLY REMEMBER THE GRAPE -BEING THAT I HATE GRAPE FLAVORED CANDY. DID THEY MAKE OTHER FLAVORS BESIDE GRAPE....I'M SURE THEY DID. IT'S IMPORTANT TO GIVE PEOPLE OPTIONS INSTEAD OF CORNERING THEM WITH ONE FLAVOR. IF THEY DID ONLY HAVE ONE FLAVOR IT WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN GRAPE ANYWAY BECAUSE ACCORDING TO MY LAST POLE CHERRY IS A FAVORITE AMONG KIDS.....AND *CLEARING THROAT* ADULTS......EH. CARRY ON.....................

Sunday, July 13, 2003

I WANT TO TELL THE WORLD (MEANING REAL LIFE FRIENDS) THAT I HAVE A BLOG. AT THE SAME TIME I DON'T WANT TO TELL ANYONE BECAUSE THEN IF I EVER HAVE THE URGE TO TALK ABOUT THEM IT COULD ABSOLUTELY RUIN A FRIENDSHIP. I GUESS I AM SUPPOSE TO TREAT THIS THING LIKE A DIARY. IN REAL LIFE I WOULDN'T GO AROUND AND SHOW MY DIARY, BUT MAYBE THAT'S WHY I NEVER REALLY KEPT A DIARY. EH... NO THE REASON WHY I NEVER REALLY KEPT A DIARY IS BECAUSE I COULD NOT COMMIT. IT IS HARD TO REMEBER TO PUT YOUR THOUGHTS DOWN ON A REGULAR BASIS......PLUS I DON'T LIKE THINGS THAT REQUIRE TOO MUCH EFFORT. LOL. OPENING A BOOK, THINKING AND THEN WRITING IS A WHOLE LOT OF EFFORT ON MY PART. I'LL KEEP THIS JOURNAL THING ON THE LOW FOR NOW...

DOES ANYONE ELSES WATCH FAME? AM I THE ONLY ONE? I CAN'T BE THE ONLY ONE BECAUSE IT'S STILL ON T.V. WHICH MEANS IT'S GETTING SOME KIND OF RATINGS OUT THERE. I DON'T REALLY SEE VERY MANY OF THE ENTERTAINMENT SHOWS COVERING IT. WHY? IT HAS WAY BETTER TALENT THAN ANY OF THE AMERICAN IDOL SHOWS. I AM ROOTING FOR HARLEMM LEE. UH THAT WASN'T A MISPELL...HE SPELLS HARLEM WITH TWO M'S. ANYWAY HE IS THE GREATEST HE HAS A LOT OF PASSION. I ALSO LIKE THAT CHICK SERENA.

I DON'T HAVE TOO MUCH TO SAY TODAY I HAVE ALOT ON MY MIND. I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT MY MODUS OPERANDI. AM I THE ONLY PERSON OUT THERE THAT STARTED A MASTERS PROGRAM AND IS NOT SURE IF THEY ARE GETTING THEIR MASTERS IN THE RIGHT THING? I MEAN PEOPLE GET THEIR UNDERGRAD DEGREE IN THINGS AND NEVER USE IT...DOES THAT HAPPEN OFTEN IN GRADUATE SCHOOL TOO? 'CAUSE I THINK IT'S HAPPENING TO ME. I REALLY DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO SEE THIS THING THROUGH. CAN'T I HAVE MORE TIME? TO FIGURE THINGS OUT? I DON'T WANNA WASTE TIME THINKING, BUT I DON'T WANT TO WASTE TIME ACTING IMPULSIVELY EITHER. WILL I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE BY THE TIME I TURN 50? SHIIIIIIIIIIIIII.....I HOPE SO. EH......

Saturday, July 12, 2003

THIS SUMMER HAS BEEN A GIGANTIC WASTE FOR THE MOST PART.....JUNE CAME SO QUICK AND THEN IT WAS GONE. NOW IT'S MID JULY AND THIS MONTH HAS BEEN PRETTY MUCH UNEVENTFUL. I ALWAYS CONSOLE MYSELF BY SAYING 'THERE IS ALWAYS NEXT SUMMER', BUT I HATE THAT I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING REALLY WORTH MENTIONING. I WANT TO SAY I WENT TO '_______' (FILL IN NAME OF SEXY FOREIGN COUNTRY). THEN TELL PEOPLE EXACTLY HOW FABULOUS IT WAS. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TOTALLY EXCITING AND UNEXPECTED. I WANT TO GO INCOGNITO FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS AND THEN COME BACK NEW AND IMPROVED. I DON'T HAVE A COMPLETELY CLEAR DEFINITION OF WHAT NEW AND IMPROVED WOULD BE YET, BUT WHEN I FIGURE IT OUT I'LL TYPE IT UP AND POST IT. TYPING ABOUT MY LIFE IS GOING TO BE MORE BORING THAN I THOUGHT....OH WELL. I MEAN I KNEW NOTHING WAS REALLY POPPING FOR ME LIKE THAT, BUT TO ACTUALLY READ SENTENCES FULL OF NOTHINGNESS IS SHOCKING...OH WELL AGAIN.

I'VE BEEN BUYING A COUPLE OF THINGS THIS SUMMER BECAUSE I REALLY DIDN'T HOOK MY CLOSET UP LAST SUMMER. I THINK IT IS BECAUSE I'M A FUNCTIONAL BUYER. I DON'T LIKE TO BUY TOO MANY CLOTHES THAT CAN BE WORN IN ONLY ONE SEASON. I AM THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT WILL BE WALKING AROUND IN LONG SLEEVED SHIRTS DURING THE SUMMER ( BUT IT'LL BE THIN) AND THEN I'LL WEAR THAT SAME LONG SLEEVED SHIRT IN THE WINTER, SPRING AND FALL WHILE ADJUSTING THE LAYERS AS NEEDED. SO I WILL WEAR THAT THIN ASS SHIRT DURING THE SUMMER WITH A SKIRT, DURING THE SPRING WITH A LIGHT SWEATER, DURING THE FALL WITH A HOODY OR JACKET AND THEN FINALLY DURING THE WINTER WITH A THICK SWEATER AND SNORKLE COAT.

I ALWAYS SEE PEOPLE CHANGE THEIR CLOSETS AROUND AND PUT THEIR SWEATERS AND HEAVY PANTS AWAY WHEN THE WEATHER GETS WARMER TO MAKE ROOM FOR THEIR SPRING AND SUMMER CLOTHES....EH NO. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THAT AND I DON'T WANT TO MAKE TIME FOR THAT. THAT IS FAR TOO LABOR INTENSE FOR ME. SO ALL OF MY CLOTHES WILL STAY WHERE THEY ARE AND I'LL JUST FIGURE OUT A WAY TO MAKE ALL OF MY CLOTHES WORK THE WHOLE YEAR THROUGH. ANOTHER THING I WILL NOT DO IS BUY THIN JEANS. I HATE THIN JEANS. I PURCHASED A PAIR OF THIN JEANS AND CALLED MYSELF WEARING THEM IN THE DEAD OF WINTER. THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS GOING TO LET MY JEANS GET OVER ON ME AND THINK I WOULD ONLY WEAR THEM FOR ONE SEASON. AS SOON AS I STEPPED OUTSIDE AND CAUGHT A NICE GUST OF WIND IT FELT AS THOUGH I WAS LITERALLY BARE LEGGED. THAT WIND WAS CUTTING MY LEGS SOMETHING AWFUL. UGGGHHHH. NEVER AGAIN. FROM THEN I SWORE THAT I WOULD NEVER BUY A PAIR OF THIN JEANS FOR THE REMAINDER OF MY TIME HERE ON EARTH. I FIXED THAT PROBLEM BY ONLY PURCHASING HEAVIER JEANS BECAUSE I HAVE NO PROBLEM SWEATING IT OUT DURING THE SUMMER. SO MIDDLE FINGER TO ALL THE JEAN COMPANIES THAT THINK EVERYONE WILL BUY TWICE THE AMOUNT OF JEANS TO ALTERNATE FROM SEASON TO SEASON. NOT ME BUDDY!

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